g'd night my love ^-^

i simply couldn't go to blankie-time without a proper g'd night *kieren kisses tricia good night* *forehead* *chin* *tip of nose* *lips*
love you

love "boymeetsboy", it's official. i deduce from your site that you also declare it in public. i wonder if it'll be good for me, being exposed to so much male sexual innuendo - somehow that part of me that dealt with such issues is undergoing repairs or something. so i just laugh and chuckle and think it madly funny and i only think it's sexy 1/3 of the time or so, so that's good

only shopping for 4 people this Christmas? ^-^ well, guess what? me too. it's note the same 4, but it's one of those little coincidences that make me feel good.--> very silly boy, me

loved the cruzeiro do sul blog, love you love you. i love you

sleep well, sweet dream *pulls blanket over himself and tricia and repeats goodnight kiss*

wo ai ni
te amo tanto. *kiss - hug-cuddle-snuggle*
teu. sempre.

g'd afternoon my love ^-^

*kissyhugs tricia*
i've been on a mornin' shoppin' spree (why am i sparin' my 'g's? well to use them like this of course)--> *ggg* buying a few odds and ends for loved ones and self ^-^ how's my baby today? i seem to see some shopping on your horizon, but maybe it's just wishful thinking ;-)

what with the shopping and it being Saturday (and the Travel Agency saying 'come on Monday' grr...) i've indulged in a big lasagna for 2 and after much effort i was able to eat it all *kieren kisses tricia just before she goes 'much effort? ha!'* i was going to kiss you any second now anyway, though there's still a faint trace of chockie in my breath - i thought that perhaps you wouldn't mind *wicked g*
-->it's not as if i asked you permission for that first kissyhug *kissyhugs tricia again but asks permision first and after teasing him for a huge 30 seconds tricia gives permission*

well, if you *did* go shopping i hoped you bought yourself lots of prezzies. i'm so afraid my prezzies for you won't make it in time that i'm considering taking a few with me just in case. after all if they do get there very late we can open them on New Year - did you know those crazy romans - well, spaniards actually - only exchange their Christmas prezzies on Jan.06? i mean, are they on a prolongued 'siesta' until then or what? seriously weird people. but charming if you actually get to know them, i'm sure(knocks on wood)

i think we have a chat thing on our future. not the distant future either, i believe it is today ^-^ :-) and *big snuggle-cuddle hug* *kisses tricia, then rests forehead-to-forehead, rubbing noses - coz it feels so good, no other reason *rubbing noses* *purrrr....*

wo ai ni
ai shiteru
te amo tanto
teu. sempre

*kieren kisses tricia and cuddl-hugs her* g'mornin' baby, slept well? i know it's kind of late for 'good mornings' but i can explain...

you see, it went something like this, my morning - woke up, got up, washed up, dressed up, coffeed up all at usual time. yet in all the flats around me and above and below there was a strange hush. i peeked outside. no queuing up at the bus stop *nor* at the taxi rank. hmmm. in fact, quite some taxis lazying about where there's usual none and lots of frustrated people. my first thought was that (as it has been known to happen once or twice before) i'd simply done things two hours earlier or something. so i checked all my watches and even my lovely old clock that goes bing and bong every half hour and has to be wound (i think the verb is 'to wind' only pronounced 'why 'n'd.' )-->going slightly mad here, help! - anyway, it's a one week mechanism and the hour was right. so i remembered school was out in Linz today. hmmm. coincidence? so i went in search of a proper calendar or planner or something and there it was: Dec.8th - holiday. Immaculate Conception. Our Lady. good ol'catholic country, this. so guess what, i went back to bed with my issue of Attitude magazine for December, reading an interview with one of my old favourites - Rupert Graves (i love him in everything since A Room With A View, Fortunes Of War, Maurice, A Handful Of Dust, The Tenanant Of W.Hall, Different For Girls... oh, stop me!). also read that Aidan Gillen will be (has been) at the Almeida Theatre, London, from Dec.7th starring in Shakespeare's The Tempest. Good for him! i like that sort of career move. i'd hate him to *go Hollywood* on the worst sense of the expression...

Oh My God, i'm forgetting my paragraphs. sorry. anyway, i felt blissfully asleep again and just woke up at 11 (here, noon there...) and started thinking about things to do with my extra-time. come to think of it, i thought it odd that they gave me the tickets to collect yesterday when they'd said 'by the weekend' - well today *is* the weekend - duh!... *daft smile* i think i'm going to listen to stuff and watch stuff with that re-ocurring feeling of "would tricia like this?" - it's not a conscious process, it's totally involuntary
*kisses tricia*-->like that's also involuntary.

Oh to be in love! *covers tricia with little kissies, then purrs and wants a cuddle and snuggle-huggy*

chat a little after 6, yes?
*bribes tricia with cinnamon-flavoured kisses*
{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}
te amo tanto!
ai shiteru
ich liebe dich (und ik also...)
teu, sempre.

g'd'a'de'noon ^_^

*kieren just got home twenty minutes ago and is now re-energizing witha big bar of hazelnut chockie which he offer to share with tricia*

my sweet love, tricia, baby - could i perhaps interest you in things like my flight numbers and arrival time in LINZ/Hoersching ? (is that the name of the airport or do you share it with another town? anyway LINZ is in big letters*g*) inte'sted' ? *does with chockie that thing people in love do with spaghetti so that they both start munching the same bar of chocolate at opposite ends until all the chockie's gone and their lips touch*

okay, i'm teasing. i arrive NOT from Basel but from Frankfurt(should make for a more interesting stay shopping-wise*g*) on Austrian Airlines flight OS 0974 at 14:05 (from my experience in these things that means probably 15:00, but this being conducted with Austrian efficiency...) do i hop on a train to town? or hire a cab? or are you going to be there and then i'll rent us a chauffer-driven limousine so we can laugh each other silly in the privacy of our large backseat? i get all thrilled about these details *g*

oh, btw - be warned: i usually travel very well, but i don't usually hop on a plane at 7 AM to get to a place seven hours later. the excitement of flying to you and flying to you and flying might make me not grumpy but actually quite speech-impaired. i might stutter. i might seem as if i'm on something, i'm not - that's me after 7 hours of forced immobility for the best reason in the world!

and do blog somethin' here so as i know you're getting all my silliness and still love me ^_^

{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}} hope you've had a calm day...or better! if yes and if kind of and if not, here: *kieren sweeps tricia off her feet kisses her with mad, passionate abandonement while waltzing 3 feet above the ground* we've landed now *snuggle-cuddle* dying to chat... hope i didn't say anything that upset you yesterday, or maybe we were online too long? since my bill is the same i forget you must be paying through the roof - i don't want to contribute to impoverishing a near-Uni student. i remember being very poor on my freshman year at uni. miserably poor. a bit depressed. completely unlike you, do i make myself clear? *makes himself clear by giving tricia nice shoulder and back rub and massaging her feet and kissing her a lot in the process*

talk to you soon
lots of kissyhugs
love you
ai shiteru
ich liebe dich
teu, para sempre.

g'lunchtime baby ^-^

slept well, i trust? how about today'skool (looks slightly less dramatic 'skool'...*silly g*), no annoying people, no boring things due to be presented, no little horrid creatures running about on every corridor... i bet it's being just like that, all peaceful. i'm having pasta again, sprinkling cheese on it and finding new ways of fork&spoon-toying about with it. some people do seem to be looking at me, but that's probably my tremendous personal magnetism, Not the fact that i have tomato sauce on my cheeks... i usually spend about 20 paper napkin things, what do you call them?, anyway - i'm a messy pasta-eater. if we ever happen to be in public together and i'm eating pasta you should stay about 10 feet away from me, and you're entitled to have your clothes dry-cleaned afterwards... this is why in private it'd be so much more fun, as i could easily eat most of the meal off you or the other way around. i'm hoping this blog's really like...ehem...private, you know?

where was i? oh yes, you were the topic i believe (all that food talk was just to throw you off). you want kieren right next to you really bad? ^_^ kieren's got news, kieren's collecting his actual planetickets(the real thing, not just vouchers, receipts thing) tomorrow mornin' yay! 21 days to go and already it's looking really real *kieren does a little dance holding tricia and ends up kissing her a few dozen times* now you really must tell me about films, cds, books, things you'd like me to bring over. i realize i'm quite dazzling by myself, but i think accessories might make me look more appetizing in your eyes *winks-blinks at tricia, then snuggles to her and purrs asking to be scratched behind his left ear* Purr-ease? *gg*

okay, enough nonsense already, must clean up this mess or someone will make me
hope you got my blog explaining what happened yesterday. i can see it from here, so you probably can, too *daft g*
oh and your journal entry made me blush and gave me a thrill and...oh i just love you love you love you!!! *kissyhugs a-plenty*

ai shiteru
teu, sempre.

g'night baby ^-^
*kieren kisses tricia* *snuggle-cuddle under their blanket* don't let me wake you up *g*

i lost my connection in mid-chat (21:29 MET) and phoned people. my irritation must have got through, or maybe they were being 'kind'. at 0:36 MET i had it back. just enough to kiss you g'night *kieren kisses tricia g'night and they both sleep peacefully...*

ai shiteru
teu, sempre.

mornin' tricia (tho it's almost lunchtime again coz tricia's kieren had no breakfast at all, <>)

as far as i recall we slept very well, with you cuddled close to me and it was so good that 'good' is not even word enough to describe it ^_^

i hate your book for making itself be read by you - and a paper about it on top, as well... grr...(tries foaming at the mouth in rage but he's almost dehydrated)--->guess you'll have to take care of me, make sure i remember to drink water, breathe, that kind of thing *looks as cute as can be* *kisses tricia* hmm...is that cinnamon i detect? lemme check... *g* *kisses tricia's lips inside out, nibbles a bit just to be sure* you're such a tease baby. please don't ever change *gg*

i have all my systems ready for a good, cosy, languid chat with you today ^-^ *kieren kisses tricia again* each time you find someone looking at you with a puzzled look during this day it's because i'll be temporarily visible to them, completely wrapped up in you and without any winter coat at all, nor gloves, nor scarf (don't worry, i'll be dressed enough...)

i think i'm far too cheeky/naughty today. whatever can it be? is it because my plane ticket is confirmed and i arrive *before* 3 pm. 22 days to go now. on the 28th by this time i'll be stuck in Basel (i bet that's not how it's written) where i change planes and catch a Tyrolean Airlines flight (bet that's not too well written either). ever heard of them? *i'm kidding!* they're part of the Qualiflyer Group, and since that means Swissair, TAP Air Portugal, Portugália Airlines & so on i think i'll be perfectly safe.

why am i rambling on about flag-carrier airlines? could it be because that's how i'll be *flying to You* ? i think it is.

*kieren wants to hold his tricia so tight* love you so much baby

*snuggle-cuddle*
remember: i'll be kissing you regularly throughout the day even before you get home. is it okay with you? *g*
*kissies, tons of them, showers of them*
te amo tanto!
ai shiteru
teu, sempre.

got your messages all in a bunch from yahoo and replied, but just in case...

*kieren joins tricia under their blanket and kisses her g'night* ^-^
don't tire yourself out over that paper, that book, that grrr... *g*
keep your fingers crossed for the sake of our connections tomorrow night. i will.

love your plans so far. if we did what you talked about tonight they'd already be my best Christmas/New Year's hols ever!!
i love you so much
{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}
ai shiteru
te amo tanto
teu, sempre.

hi baby! ^_^

naughty damned paper *kieren growls at paper which finishes itself* there!

pretty boring day for me. so boring that i truly have nothing good or bad to tell you, except i started checking my winter-clothes list (thanks to your help, of course ^-^) and found out i have most of the things already, except i lost my best pair of gloves last year and the scarf makes me look like a bad version of Dr. Who... *g* and hat? do you really mean it? like those with floppy ears that make you look either like a sheepdog or like a lumberjack? hmm... me as a lumberjack quite interesting. the boots are right, as are the shirts and pullovers and stuff. oh yes. very macho. it screams "i'm queer & i'm here" from a mile off ... rotfl....

going to have a scalding shower now, thanks for help with cinnamon - i purred for hours after it...

both yahoo and icq seem well-behaved, as is blogger. all i need now is my mail address back

*kieren kisses tricia and then hugs her until he's a bit warmer*

talk/chat to you! (fingers crossed)
{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}
te amo tanto!
ai shiteru
teu

baby,

remember to tell your baby about your day... ^-^

tricia, baby ^_^

yahoo as kindly allowed me to ask 'icecurls' to accept adding me to her list, so *kiss* please *cuddle* accept *kissyhug* me *snuggling now...*

i think blogger might just be working again... *g*

done lots of thinking about dark matters, but my heart wasn't in it - 'twas in you love you love you love you *kieren accidentally gets showered with cinnamon* oops - clumsy of me, please come and help me take this Wonderful stuff off my face. i think there's a bit on my neck, too - i wonder where i can get someone to help me remove it. i can't see it or reach it, i just know it's there and is making me ticklish *g*

talk/chat/write&read later, yes? *looks as cute as he is, giving tricia a momentary scare*
te amo tanto
ai shiteru
ever yours
sempre teu

mornin' tricia, my sweetest love ^-^

that was the opening line of the post that just got
unblogged (too much time to connect or something)

icecurls doesn't show up as a yahoo!id - i checked all
200 id s containing "ice"...

yesterday it was my connection that went dead, Sunday
it was icq at play, because i was online everywhere
else...
i hope you've slept well, i went to bed at 11/midnight
after giving up on the modem. i'll complain today.
bet our 2 blankets were so good and warm and cosy...
*kisses tricia*

read all about strikes and English Assistants(tell me
more*g*) and extra-time on your blog ^_^

today i'll only think good thoughts (you, you, you,
only you) but everything you wrote about your
experiences with flames helped me to put things even
more into perspective. thanks baby *kisses tricia with
no moderation whatsoever*

23 days to go...yay! *gg* i'm already going through my
winter thingies. is it more often very cold/snowing or
raining? i'll go prepared for both. *g*
oh, did i mention i'm taking 2 bottles of instant
coffee that are enough for 50 cups and cost me the
huge sum of 120 Schillings? i'll have to rely on
charity for honey and hotel for sugar (I steal things
from hotels, btw...little bath gels, pens, packets of
sugar...) *kieren kisses tricia before she changes her
mind about kieren being 100% honest with her while
robbing those poor penniless hotels* *ggg*

having to dash now. *snuggle-cuddle* *kissyhug*
te amo tanto
para sempre
ai shiteru
teu.

ps - had to send this by mai firstl. blogger wasn't working
pps - did i say my yahoo!id is Kieren_56 ?

baby, you're truly the best 'or' kieren understands much better now

^_^ can i do this and cry at the same time? i hope so. i realize what sharing means now. it means that the bad stuff has to come out, too - so that we can deal with it together. i'm sorry i didn't understand it very good before. i think i didn't understand it at all, maybe...

i do now. i know you know what i was feeling - and all the time i was thinking i should be strong on my own, look out for you, not let things that hurt me get to you because you'd feel mad at whoever/whatever but there would be nothing you could do. but now i know there was, there is. you can hug me, you can talk to me, you can try to make my pain go away - and you do that so well, so well baby...

i love you. we'll talk all we have to about this, but i'll never hide the bad stuff again, i'll never hide anything. i've opened my heart to you when we 'met', now i want you to know that i open my soul, too. my mind. everything. even if something happens that i know you can't do anything besides grrrowling and climbing the walls *g*

major question: do you forgive me that it took me this long and all this shit to understand what 'sharing' means? coz i'm being totally honest now: don't tell me there's nothing to forgive, don't. because i *need* your forgiveness.

so that we can go on together and deal with the blows and the kisses life throws at us. please?

*kisses tricia for a very long time lays his head on her lap and sobs...* thanks for your lap ^_^

now this will sound silly, but how was *your* day? i don't need you to tell me a major catastrophe/fab event everyday, but i think together we might cope with even that. We would. Will.

i feel our love is even stronger now - i didn't think that would be possible: and just look at the series of things that made it stronger. weird, baby. but good-weird. do you really, truly, deeply know how madly i love you?
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{this much is just a hint, tricia, baby}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

*offers bump in the head for tricia to kiss if she still wants to* Truth: it still hurts a bit Truth: it's nothing medically relevant, it's completely non-relevant, in fact. i was told so. *g*

*kieren tries to get near wolf cub to pet it. it lets it, and turns into tricia and kieren snuggles to her because he loves to, he loves her, and he's still shaken* Truth: for a moment yesterday i thought i'd damaged *us* Truth: i realize it wasn't like that

one last bit of truth because i need to: all that hate in those m@ils, i mean they, no, 'it' didn't even know me. why so much anger? why the need to make me feel like i was worse than shit and should be treated like that by everyone for the rest of my meaningless life...
you said you also got letters like this on one of your lists - how can it be? how dare 'it' cause so much pain.

now grab hold of your kieren for this one: i think i would have killed myself if you didn't exist and were so much a part of me... you see - i could kill myself, do that to ME, but not to US, never to YOU. there. i said it. and it's scary and i'm sorry. but thanks for saving me.

*kissyhug + snuggle-cuddle* *kieren wants to rest next to his tricia now...*
teu para sempre
te amo tanto
ai shiteru.

g'lunchtime baby ^_^

if it was sent to lusimail.com, i haven't been able to access my account since saturday afternoon, i already wrote to complain.grr...

*stupid* is a forbidden word - what could it possibly be in there that you felt you wanted to tell me and now don't want to?
i thought we were supposed to share good and bad - it's not as if you didn't mailed me the message *fakes pout*

by what you say this has got to be about me keeping things from you - you know i only do that because i love you, i want to shelter you from bad stuff. but i promised i'd tell you from now on.

i'm sorry if my not telling you...whatever i didn't tell you... made you feel bad. please, what can i do to make it better? i ask you right here and now to forgive me. i admit i really *am* stupid about things sometimes. I trust you completely, but why is it so wrong not to want to tell you bad stuff that happens to me? Anyway, I'll tell you all. Please don't feel insecure. and please tell me all you want to about what happens to you, how you're feeling. I love you, i'd like you to trust me enough to tell me.

i never hid feelings from you. only events. and in the end i told you, you didn't point a gun at my head and forced it out.

is it something i'm missing here? do you want me to describe my head-bump experience in detail? i will
do you want me to show you the full content of the hate-letters? it'll break my heart into little pieces...but i'll do it
do you want me to admit i kept bad things from you? i did and i'm so sorry baby

i love you. i've never been this much in love. i don't know the rules or if we make them both together or if there are no rules... please forgive me, be patient with me - you're the one i live for {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
*kieren kisses tricia and gently snuggles to her*
i'm sorry for being such a bastard of a boyfriend, please don't give up on me yet

i'm so happy and excited and nervous about the 28th already *g*
we can talk things over, make it all fine, can't we? *tries to look like a cute panther cub*

te amo tanto!
teu (if you'll still have me)
*kiss-hug-snuggle-cuddle*
yes, definitely teu.

g'lunchtime baby ^_^

if it was sent to lusimail.com, i haven't been able to access my account since saturday afternoon, i already wrote to complain.grr...

*stupid* is a forbidden word - what could it possibly be in there that you felt you wanted to tell me and now don't want to?
i thought we were supposed to share good and bad - it's not as if you didn't mailed me the message *fakes pout*

by what you say this has got to be about me keeping things from you - you know i only do that because i love you, i want to shelter you from bad stuff. but i promised i'd tell you from now on.

i'm sorry if my not telling you...whatever i didn't tell you... made you feel bad. please, what can i do to make it better? i ask you right here and now to forgive me. i admit i really *am* stupid about things sometimes. I trust you completely, but why is it so wrong not to want to tell you bad stuff that happens to me? Anyway, I'll tell you all. Please don't feel insecure. and please tell me all you want to about what happens to you, how you're feeling. I love you, i'd like you to trust me enough to tell me.

i never hid feelings from you. only events. and in the end i told you, you didn't point a gun at my head and forced it out.

is it something i'm missing here? do you want me to describe my head-bump experience in detail? i will
do you want me to show you the full content of the hate-letters? it'll break my heart into little pieces...but i'll do it
do you want me to admit i kept bad things from you? i did and i'm so sorry baby

i love you. i've never been this much in love. i don't know the rules or if we make them both together or if there are no rules... please forgive me, be patient with me - you're the one i live for {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
*kieren kisses tricia and gently snuggles to her*
i'm sorry for being such a bastard of a boyfriend, please don't give up on me yet

i'm so happy and excited and nervous about the 28th already *g*
we can talk things over, make it all fine, can't we? *tries to look like a cute panther cub*

te amo tanto!
teu (if you'll still have me)
*kiss-hug-snuggle-cuddle*
yes, definitely teu.

i knew there was a reason, meu amor ^_^

*roars at tricia's company* love you! so glad you'll be eating properly when i'm there to take care of you *g* either that or we'll both starve - I kind of guessed you only ate mid-mornings...

now i'm really giving up on staying up. I'll warm blankie for you, shall i?

let's pretend there was no today, no egroups, no baileys and no misunderstandings

that leaves us with a perfect usual Sunday, wanna see?
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
te amo tanto!
teu. *more snuggles*

mornin' tricia, liebling ^_^

i've been up and about for all of...hmm...30 minutes. want me to bring you breakfast in bed? gotta know what you like to eat in the morning - and don't say "nothing much". if you have no coffeee and on top of that no proper breakfast you'll get all grumpy *g*. proper breakfast? hot chockie & french toast? i can manage those if you don't mind your toasts slightly raw or overdone...*g*

*hugs tricia and smothers with her kisses til the poor baby wakes*

flu a whole lot better, fever still about 38, nothing to worry about, right?

talk to you later or maybe read from you?

te amo tanto!
{{{{{{{{{{{{tricia}}}}}}}}}}}}
teu.